It's too late to apologize.

It's too late.

Entah.

Its been a week. Til now, we dont talk. But you know, i'm feelin okay with this situation. Ga ada keinginan buat mengakhiri situasi ini. Rasanya males. Il-feel. Bodo. Bicara masalah awalnya, honestly, for me, now it's not a problem anymore. But still, i cant be just like usual as before. Why? Me dont know. You know, its not about the beginning, its all about the process, and depend on what i've been thru for about the last 8days, i just can see it clearly now. I have lost the feeling. Maybe its too fast to decide this, mungkin banyak pengaruh yang membuat gue kayak sekarang, tapi toh, he didnt took any effort to make it better. Malah memperburuk. Entah. Now what should i do. Bertahan dengan kondisi ini yang ga bakal ada gunanya or maybe... Should we end this?

Todat my Life Begins

 

By Bruno Mars

 

I've been working hard so long
Seems like pain has been my only friend
My fragile heart's been done so wrong
I wondered if I'd ever heal again

Ohh just like all the seasons never stay the same
All around me I can feel a change (ohh)

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
Leave the past behind me, today my life begins
A whole new world is waithing it's mine for the taking
I know I can make it today my life begins

Yesterday has come and gone
And I've learn how to leave it where it is
And I see that I was wrong
For ever doubting I could win

Ohh just like all the seasons never stay the same
All around me I can feel a change (ohh)

I will break these chains that bind me happiness will find me
Leave that past behind me today my life begins
A whole new world is waiting its mine for the taking
I know I can make it today my life begins

Life's to short to have regrets
So I'm learning now to leave it in the past and try to forget
Only have one life to live
So you better make the best of it

I will break these chains that bind me happiness will find me
Leave the past behind me today my life begins
A whole new world is waiting its mine for the taking
I know I can make it today my life begins

I will break these chains that bind me happiness will find me
Leave the past behind me today my life begins
A whole new world is waiting its mine for the taking
I know I can make it today my life begins 

 

 

 

 

 

Go on try to tear my down, i will be rising from the ground. - DemiLovato

 

Because thru every temptation, you can reach anything you want, if you have the faith.

Happy birthday dewi!

Made for Dewi Asrini Fazaria's Birthday, 2day, oct the 28th.

Happy 21yo pacar ke-2!! :))

Apart

15 months. We dont meet. Even 2 say something feels really hard. Fuck today. So this is how it feels. To have someone just in your mind not in reality. We're way apart and no one would make any effort to make it better.

Mari terus menulis! :)

I wish everything could stay the same as the first hi.

Mana Mungkin Aku Setia..

Sebenarnya ini bukan tentang kematianmu, bukan itu. Karena, aku tahu bahwa semua yang ada pasti menjadi tiada pada akhirnya, dan kematian adalah sesuatu yang pasti, dan kali ini adalah giliranmu untuk pergi, aku sangat tahu itu. 

Tapi yang membuatku tersentak sedemikian hebat, adalah kenyataan bahwa kematian benar-benar dapat memutuskan kebahagiaan dalam diri seseorang, sekejap saja, lalu rasanya mampu membuatku menjadi nelangsa setengah mati, hatiku seperti tak di tempatnya, dan tubuhku serasa kosong melompong, hilang isi. 

Kau tahu sayang, rasanya seperti angin yang tiba-tiba hilang berganti kemarau gersang. Pada airmata yang jatuh kali ini, aku selipkan salam perpisahan panjang, pada kesetiaan yang telah kau ukir, pada kenangan pahit manis selama kau ada. Aku bukan hendak megeluh, tapi rasanya terlalu sebentar kau disini. 

Mereka mengira aku lah kekasih yang baik bagimu sayang, tanpa mereka sadari, bahwa kaulah yang menjadikan aku kekasih yang baik. Mana mungkin aku setia padahal memang kecenderunganku adalah mendua, tapi kau ajarkan aku kesetiaan, sehingga aku setia, kau ajarkan aku arti cinta, sehingga aku mampu mencintaimu seperti ini. 

Selamat jalan, Kau dari-Nya, dan kembali pada-Nya, kau dulu tiada untukku, dan sekarang kembali tiada.

Selamat jalan sayang, cahaya mataku, penyejuk jiwaku,

Selamat jalan, calon bidadari surgaku ….

-B.J. Habibie

RIP Simoncelli :"(

Yes. I was shocked when i heard the news. Marco Simoncelli died today, October the 23th at Sepang, Malaysia after crashing and being hit by two other rider, Colin Edward and Valentino Rossi. I cant describe how the crash was going clearly... It was too scary. Simoncelli lost control of his Honda at turn 11 four minutes into the race, but his bike regained partial grip and swerved across the track and into the path of Edward and Rossi. Simoncelli's helmet was ripped off in the collision and he lay motionless on the track. He had been fourth at the end of the first lap.Some ppl said that his head was hitted by one of the 2 other riders. Rumors, whatever. Nobody want this to happened.

Marco had a extreme style in racing, he's still young and aggressive, and thats make him uniqe. I cant forget how i shout some bad words when he took pedrosa down at Le Mans, France. Ofcourse that anger fade away slowly. And today, when i hear the news, it felt like, oh God. I cant believe it!! I always predicted that he will easy to fall down on the race bcs of his race style, but when it brings him to death, i cant say anything. I dont want this to happened!! He's just 24. He was too young to die. Tho many riders may have some clash with him, i bet no one ever wished this. He gave a new color at motoGP, and now, the color has fade away. The track wont be the same without him. Today, the world has lost one of the best rising star. RIP Marco. We'll be missing you </3

 It still hard for me to believe that he's already gone. Have a safe ride to heaven, number 58. Take care there :")

Girls bring the boys out!!

The boys is ooout guys!! 3 days ago, on oct the 19th, SNSD which is also known as Girls Generation take their new MV out!! The boys' mv was made in 2 version, korean and english, tho there's no big difference on their clip. This new song and clips bring you a different side of the girls. They tried to look different for their old style, which is sooo girly and cute-act. In this clip, they were going wild!!! My favourite part is when Yuri's rapping and dance. She's daaaaamn hot!!! I love Sunny's hair, its extremely short and blonde. I also love Soehyun's in the last part when she's wearing that total black outfit. Different from usual. Then, the best girl for me is Jessica. She looks sooo beautiful. In addition, she also take a big part in the song. Unnieeeeeee >.<

Artist : Girls' Generation 소녀시대

Title Album : 3rd Album "The Boys"

Release date : 2011.10.19

Label : SM Entertainment

Girls' Generation [ SNSD ] - The Boys English Version

I can tell you're lookin at me I know what you see
Any closer and you'll feel the heat
You don't have to pretend that you didn't notice me
Every look will make it hard to breathe

Bring the boys out (yeah you know)
Bring the boys out (we bring the boys out, we bring the boys out, yeah)
Bring the boys out

Soon as I step on the scene
I know that they'll be watching me watching me (get up)
I'ma be the hottest in this spot
There ain't no stopping me (That's funny) stopping me

I know life is a mystery

I'm gonna make history
I'm taking it from the start
Call all emergency I'm watching the phone ring
I'm feeling this in my heart (my heart)

Bring the boys out.

Girls' Generation make you feel the heat
And we're doin it we can't be beat
(Bring the boys out)
We're born to win better tell all your friends
Cuz we get it in 

You know the girls
(Bring the boys out)

Wanna know my secrets but no I'll never tell
Cuz I got the magic touch and I'm not trying to fail
That's right (yes fly high!) 

And I (I) (you fly high!) can't deny
I know I can fly

I know life is a mystery I'm gonna make history
I'm taking it from the start
Call all emergency, I'm watching the phone ring
I'm feeling this in my heart (my heart)

Bring the boys out.

Girls' Generation make you feel the heat
And we're doin it we can't be beat
(Bring the boys out)
We're born to win Better tell all your friends
Cuz we get it in 

You know the girls
(Bring the boys out)

Girls bring the boys out!
I wanna dance right now 

We can show em how the girls get down
Yes we go for more than zero 

Number one  everyone should know, check this out
All'a (all the) boys, All'a (all the) boys want my heart

Better know how to rock and don't stop
Oh gee we make it so hot

Girls generation we won't stop

Bring the boys out

It's not a fantasy, this is right for me 

Living it like a star
Can't get the best of me

I'ma be what I wanna be 

This is deep in my heart

I can tell you're lookin at me
I know what you see any closer

and you'll feel the heat (Just Bring the boys out)
You don't have to pretend that you didn't notice me 

Every look will make it hard to breathe (Bring The Boys out)

Cuz the girls bring the boys out
Girls bring the boys out
Girls bring the boys out
Girls bring the boys out

Girls' Generation make em feel the heat
And we're doin it we can't be beat (Bring the boys out)
We're born to win better tell all your friends
Cuz we get it in
You know the girls
(Bring the boys out)

I saw this on my fb homepage.

“You must know that there is nothing higher and stronger and more wholesome and good for life in the future than some good memory, especially a memory of childhood, of home. People talk to you a great deal about your education, but some good, sacred memory, preserved from childhood, is perhaps the best education.” -- Fyodor Dostoevsky ♥

 

How lovely... :)

The moment i hate.

Momen ini adalah momen yang paling menyebalkan, momen yang paling saya benci, namun pasti pernah terjadi pada setiap orang. Ya, momen sedih. Setiap orang pasti pernah merasakan ini. Termasuk saya. termasuk anda. Termasuk orang-orang yang saya sayangi. Setiap orang punya cara yang berbeda-beda dalam menghadapinya. Saya pribadi, termasuk orang yang gampang meneteskan air mata (iya cengeng), jadi jika saya merasa berat menghadapi masalah yang membuat saya sedih, saya menangis. Setelah itu, baru deh cari pelampiasan lain, misalnya jalan-jalan, atau refreshing apa lah. Terus cerita sama pacar atau sahabat. Begitulah cara saya menyikapinya, mungkin ada yang sama, dan banyak juga yang berbeda. But its not a big deal. Every person has their own life, and its different with the others. Begitu pula jalan hidup dan cara mereka menyikapinya.

Melalui kesedihan sendiri memang berat... Tapi ada hal yang lebih berat bagi saya, yakni melihat orang yang saya sayangi sedih dan menderita. Kenapa? Karena beban yang saya tanggung, beban yang saya alami jadi berkali-kali lipat. Pertama, kesedihan orang tersebut adalah kesedihan saya juga. Meskipun hal itu tidak menimpa saya, tapi saya turt merasakannya. Kedua, saya benci melihat mereka tersakiti dan menangis karena masalah mereka. Seandainya saya bisa membantu... Tapi itulah masalah saya yang ketiga. Saya tak tau, saya seringkali bingung dalam menghadapi mereka. Saya sering terbawa oleh emosi dan perasaan sendiri, saya takut salah jika saya mengambil suatu sikap dan tindakan dalam meresponnya. Saya takut mereka malah akan semakin terluka, akan semakin mengingat hal yang membuat mereka sedih. Tapi tidak semua orang bisa dialihkan perhatiannya akan masalah mereka itu... Intinya tiap orang berbeda. Entah apa saya yang belum begitu mengenal mereka, atau memang saya terlalu payah untuk memahami... Tapi sebenarnya, saya sangat peduli :(

I believe.

that KARMA EXIST.
Every ppl has its different time, and i saw one of them today.
Just wait for yours dear, it will come soon....

Daaaaamn funny!!!!!

I found this pict on tumblr. Goddamn, kampanyenya sih bener tapi caranya........................................................

You're impossible to find.

Pasti yang baca judulnya udah mikir yang sweet-sweet deh. Hehe. But it is not in this case. Jadi ceritanya gini. Few days ago, me and anun were going to some place to hang out. Di jalan, kita ngelewatin emperan-emperan yang banyak penjual hp-hp second gitu. Dan tsaaaaaah, this phone catch my eyessight. Sony ericsson z610i. Ibarat cinta lama bersemi kembali. Ya, dulu saya pernah sangat tertarik dengan hp ini. Hp ini bukan hp canggih, but what makes me interested is, designnya yang sumpah super duper unyuuuuuuw <3

 

Cute, right? Dulu pernah mau beli hp ini, tapi waktu itu Soner udah ga ngeluarin barang barunya. Jadi ya, mau ga mau harus nyari second. Dan si papah tuh paling anti sama barang bekas. ga terjamin, katanya. Ya, berhubung yang mau beliin si bos besar, apa daya daku pun nurut saja. Dan pasangan yang saling mencintai ini pun tak bisa bersatu. Sedih.................... * apasih -_- *

Beberapa hari lalu, hp yang sekarang kebetulan rusak. Teringat hp di emperan itu.... Bunga-bunga pun beterbangan. Pengen banget rasanya. But the other day i wanna buy that phone... Hp itu udah ga ada. Yaiyalah udah laku, secara lucu gitu :"( Akhirnya tetep juga nyariin kemana-mana, tapis secondnya ga ada yang semulus yang pertama itu. Oh my, penyesalan emang selalu dateng belakangan. Sekarang, hp unyu itu terus muter-muter di pikiran, minta dicariin. Dear soner, why u dont produced that phone any longer? Grrr. 

I'm deeply in love with this thingy, but it's no longer available :"(

Another great man has gone.

My first post on this month. I feel weird that i must write this sad thing. This morning, october the 5th, Steve jobs, the co-founder and ex-ceo of Apple and Pixar has passed away. I was so shocked when i hear abt the news. I took this from apple's site. Deepest condolence for you, Sir. Rest in peace. Another great man has gone, but his inventions, his memories will stay with u.

 

3 apples changed the world: Adam & Eve's, Newton's and Steve Job's :( 

RIP Sir..